Super Energy Detox (21 Day Plan)

I got a book today, about a detox which is supposed to help you lose weight, and feel amazing.
It's funny because in the 'not suitable for' section, it says not to do the detox if suffering from an eating disorder.

Thing is, I could't give a fuck, if I decide I like the plan, I'm gonna do it... And you're all welcome to join!

Love y'all x

I feel like a monster

A great big fat monster, and I hate it.

• I hate my stomach
• I hate my thighs
• I hate my calves
• I hate my arms
• I hate my fat neck + chin

I just wish I could go back to who I used to be. It seems as though it was never me.

I. Am. Fat, fat, fat, fat, fat, fat, FAT, FAT, FUCKING FAT

ARRGHHH

rant over :]

Maybe One Day...

When I Re-Create Myself

I want to be:

• pretty
• toned
• tanned
• skinny
• bony
• graceful
• perfect

like this:

What your cravings mean

In no attempt to steal information from anyone, here is the website in which i found the info:
http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/9WV687/www.2ndwindbodyscience.com/what%252520your%252520food.php

Compiled by Doug Setter of 2nd Wind Body Science doug@2ndwindbodyscience.com

If you crave this... What you really need is... And here are healthy foods that have it:       Chocolate Magnesium Raw nuts and seeds, legumes, fruits Sweets Chromium Broccoli, grapes, cheese, dried beans, calves liver, chicken   Carbon Fresh fruits   Phosphorus Chicken, beef, liver, poultry, fish, eggs, dairy, nuts, legumes, grain   Sulfur Cranberries, horseradish, cruciferous vegetables, kale, cabbage   Tryptophan Cheese, liver, lamb, raisins, sweet potato, spinach Bread, toast Nitrogen High protein foods: fish, meat, nuts, beans Oily snacks, fatty foods Calcium Mustard and turnip greens, broccoli, kale, legumes, cheese, sesame Coffee or tea Phosphorous Chicken, beef, liver, poultry, fish, eggs, dairy, nuts, legumes   Sulfur Egg yolks, red peppers, muscle protein, garlic, onion, cruciferous vegetables   NaCl (salt) Sea salt, apple cider vinegar (on salad)   Iron Meat, fish and poultry, seaweed, greens, black cherries Alcohol, recreational drugs Protein Meat, poultry, seafood, dairy, nuts   Avenin Granola, oatmeal   Calcium Mustard and turnip greens, broccoli, kale, legumes, cheese, sesame   Glutamine Supplement glutamine powder for withdrawal, raw cabbage juice   Potassium Sun-dried black olives, potato peel broth, seaweed, bitter greens Chewing ice Iron Meat, fish, poultry, seaweed, greens, black cherries Burned food Carbon Fresh fruits Soda and other carbonated drinks Calcium Mustard and turnip greens, broccoli, kale, legumes, cheese, sesame Salty foods Chloride Raw goat milk, fish, unrefined sea salt Acid foods Magnesium Raw nuts and seeds, legumes, fruits Preference for liquids rather than solids Water Flavor water with lemon or lime. You need 8 to 10 glasses per day. Preference for solids rather than liquids Water You have been so dehydrated for so long that you have lost your thirst. Flavor water with lemon or lime. You need 8 to 10 glasses per day. Cool drinks Manganese Walnuts, almonds, pecans, pineapple, blueberries Pre-menstrual cravings Zinc Red meats (especially organ meats), seafood, leafy vegetables, root vegetables General overeating Silicon Nuts, seeds; avoid refined starches   Tryptophan Cheese, liver, lamb, raisins, sweat potato, spinach   Tyrosine Vitamin C supplements or orange, green, red fruits and vegetables Lack of appetite Vitamin B1 Nuts, seeds, beans, liver and other organ meats   Vitamin B3 Tuna, halibut, beef, chicken, turkey, pork, seeds and legumes   Manganese Walnuts, almonds, pecans, pineapple, blueberries   Chloride Raw goat milk, unrefined sea salt Tobacco Silicon Nuts, seeds; avoid refined starches   Tyrosine Vitamin C supplements or orange, green and red fruits and vegetables

I'm not taking any more shit.

I'm finally starting to lose weight (I know! took it's time didn't it!!) and everyone's trying to force food down my throat. Everyone in this house cares about themselves above everyone else, and I am no longer going to be the pathetic little girl who goes out of her way to please the greedy bastards.

oooh I feel a rant coming on!!

Did I mention that I paid the boyfriend's mortgage the other day? yeah. He only gave me £40 towards the £230 I paid. And then THE SAME DAY he goes out and buys a £78 pair of shoes, and £40 on a pair of jeans. I was quite literally disgusted.

Oh yeah, and yesterday? He went and got himself an iPad!!! A FUCKING iPAD!!

Arrgh it infuriates me how everyone thinks about themselves. He started bitching on about how he 'works so hard for his money'. He earns peanuts. Literally, every month he fucking whines about how he's constantly in his overdraft, and how he can't afford to live. And then he wastes what little money he does have - and lies about how much it costs! He made me lie to his mum about the shoes - and he does it in such an effortless manner, that I wonder what else he lies to me about, to be honest.

So why the fuck should I go out of my way to get fat, just to please them? They can quite literally
Fuck. Right. Off.

So I've eaten a couple of 84 cal biscuits, and two pieces of buttered toast. yeah, that is the downside to my day... I was doing so well, BUT on the other handdd, I'm going to do rather a lot of exercise tonight, and I am point blank refusing dinner.

I'm going back onto my diet pills too... I'm not waiting any longer... I have to be perfect by my birthday!