i've had a really shit couple of days
my relationship is on the rocks, and i'm just not feeling great
plus the fact i can't stop binging!
i can just feel the anger welling up in me... like it's filling me up from my feet to my head. it's at my chest right now. my chest feels strange. the anger's there. everything everyone does at home fucks me off, and i get frustrated at the smallest thing!
it's being fat that's doing this to me. fat fat fat. why can't i drop this fucking weight? my body makes me feel physically sick, yet i just can't stop myself. i want to cry! scream, shout... jump. lets see if i can fly? I cant. the wind won't carry an elephant like me. FUCK MY LIFE.
you know what, it's times like this, when, even though i've been anorexic in the past, i want to get every single anorexic in the world in the same room as me, and get them to drum into me as many 'tips' as possible. to be honest about how fat i am. arghhhhhhhh!!!!!
someone help?
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